Living without Bob and "Al"

Sheri is having a hard time accepting that it has been a year today since Bob and Al became one again, rejoicing with Lord. She is sure he is singing in the heavenly choir.
Sheri needs to pause, praise and pray.

Living with Bob and "Al"

This is 8 minutes of Bob and "Al" trying to put Bob's back brace on. It is important to understand what cognitive impairment really looks like. This is 8 minutes long for us, but to Alzheimer's there is no clock. Watch carefully as "Al" struggles at first to put his back brace on, and then how quickly he looses track of the task and soon has no idea what he was doing at all. This is true cognitive impairment. Please watch to the end Thank you.

Sheri has been under the weather, physically and emotionally. Turns out what she needed was time alone with God and her camera. The concentrated focus through that lens reminds her that God knows every ounce of her being, even in this world of chaos.
Sheri needed to pause, praise and pray.

Sheri is trying hard to find her center, but she is not sure if the tears of the past weigh more or less than the fears of the future.
Sheri needs to pause, praise and pray.

If ever there were a year that this award was special to Sheri, she would have to say this year would be it. Thank you to the faithful readers that made this possible. Do your best to live in the moment  and pause, praise and pray.
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Sheri used to wonder why people felt they still needed to recognize special days after their loved ones were gone. After all an anniversary is recognition of how long they have been together... so the fact that today "would have been" Sheri and Bob's 30th wedding anniversary, really should not be considered an anniversary at all. Sheri thinks she gets it now.
Heavy sigh, Sheri is going to pause, praise and pray.

Sheri is trying hard to just go with flow, as she navigates these deep swings of joy and sorrow. To be honest most days she just focuses on work and hopes she can keep it together. She is not looking for sympathy, she is just sharing so you might know what others in your life who are grieving, are going through.
Sheri needs to pause, praise and pray.

Sheri knows she is suffering from depression and anxiety. She takes medication for this and wants others that are struggling to know it is ok to talk about it. She has been attending a grief counseling group, (well at least when the frozen tundra has been safe enough to go out in lol) She wakes up every morning and puts one foot in front of the other …. just like so many other people in the world, all for different reasons.She had surgery last week, and in her week recovery time at home she spent too much time watching headlines of the news. Sheri had to remind herself over and over that God is in control. She has turned the TV off .. she is determined to survive the aftermath of caregiving. She is going to refocus on living one day at a time and doing her best to live in Gods Word, the Comforter of all stress, depression and anxiety.
Sheri needs to Pause, Praise and Pray.

Sheri is wondering if others that have survived "living in the shadow of Alzheimer's" have experienced the awareness of physical issues with in themselves that seem to be surfacing out of nowhere? It is hard for Sheri to believe she would have ignored all these small miscellaneous health issues if she had seen them in the past. Sheri thinks it may be because the "shadow "is fading back into the light and things that were hidden are a little more visible.
Sheri needs to Pause, praise and pray.

Sheri finds it hard to believe that the same seven months could hold so much sadness and so much joy all at the same time. Welcome to the world Sheri's first grandchild... Elsie Rose :)  Beautiful way to start the new year. God is good.