Sheri is feeling very isolated these days. She works full time so that may seem strange to say. That world does not include her Alzheimer life. It seems like she starts and ends her day with that same "I don't want to be here feeling." She knows it is selfish to feel this way, but she so wants to be able to have a discussion, snuggle on the couch, share some feelings. The humor gets her through "it", but the rest of "it" breaks her heart. Sheri hates this disease.
I know how you feel. Losing my partner while he is still there standing in front of me has been the hardest thing in the world to adjust to. It requires so much rewiring of thinking and behavior on my part. And let’s face it; it’s hard to teach an old dog new tricks :) Nobody understands what this is like without experiencing it themselves. I think part of that is because when times are good, we take so much for granted.
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