Living with Bob and "Al"

The mental process of deciding to place Bob and "Al" has been exhausting.  Behaviors have become unmanageable. More importantly Sheri can no longer keep him safe. She was feeling housebound again because "the boys" do not like being out in the cold, but the sundowning  started early yesterday and Sheri decided to just bundle them up and put them in the car and go for a drive. Sheri challenged herself to take her camera and see what type of photos she could take from inside the car, since photo opportunity have been few and far between and she is missing her connection with nature and God. She was able to get a few good shots from parking lots so she was feeling a sense of connection to her surroundings again, so much so that when "Al" managed to not only unlock the car door but actually open the car door WHILE SHERI WAS DRIVING  she heard God screaming at her loud and clear that was time to place Bob somewhere where "they" can be safe.

Living with Bob and "Al"

As Sheri approaches the thought of this new level of care-giving... care-giving from a far, she is struggling with so many issues. Guilt is probably the worst. She does not need to hear "there is nothing to feel guilty about you did the best you could." The logical part of her knows this. That does not change the way the heart works. She looks at this man, trapped inside himself and her need to protect and nurture him overtakes logic. Theses are not matters of the head they are matters of the heart.