Sheri has learned a few things this week, whether she wanted to or not. She has really only been focused on Bobs memory loss, as it is the most obvious sign of "Al". But between the trip to emergency room and reviewing the MRI's from 2008 and 2012, it became obvious there is an inner "Al" working at destroying Bob's being as well. Sheri just did not put 2 and 2 together. Sheri learned that there are several areas of Bob's brain that have been affected by the atrophy. One of them is the area of the brain that controls movement, it is not the part that initiates movement, but the part that follows the instruction for movement. Sheri has mention several times that Bob will say he can not lift is legs while lying in bed, Sheri always thought this had do do with a the condition of his back although the doctors had said it did not. Sheri had a eerie sensation run through her when she realized this is "Al" working from the inside out.
Sheri hates this disease. She is scared about what the future holds.
Psalm 56:3
When I am afraid, I put my trust in you.
Hi Sheri - sadly this is a very good description of the disease. This is where the loving takes place, that's all and everything you can do. Reach out for more support for you while you continue to hold Bob with all your might. Only think about now Sheri. The future does not need to exist. All that matters is now. I truly got that lesson in dealing with this illness, and to be honest, my only regrets are when I let the fear take over. Lots of love to you & Bob.
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I'm learning so much from you blog. Stay strong Sheri. Thanks for your sharing your life.
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